Having fun doing a few simple experiments with young kids to show symboically deeper meanings behind things that YOU CAN DO AT HOME TOO!

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I used to be thin. As a matter of fact, when my kids were little, I weighed about 130 lbs. Somewhere along the way I lost my figure and got up to 250. I dont know where all this weight came from. I love food. I like to eat it, prepare it, experiment with it and have friends and family over for huge meals, but while I am starting this new lifestyle, I cant even eat an oreo cookie without counting the points. Why cant I be just like I used to be? I remember when I never thought about food and used to not worry about drinking a coke or having a cupcake. I used to eat a double burger at the local fast food joint and didnt worry about the calories. Now I am freaking out trying to figure out how many points are in the supper I had this evening earlier. I obsess about fat, carbs and calories. What happened? Why did I change? How did my weight get away from me? Is it going to help me lose a bunch of weight if I cannot make it a permanent change. I love food. I like to eat it and not think about it every hour of every day. Can you inspire me?

All I can say is I used to worry about weight. I went on my last diet in 1997 and had bleeding, then I decided to stop.
I ride a bike everywhere I go and the weight seems to take care of itself.

Its how we feel about ourselves.

Its about cholesterol and blood pressure, not outward appearance.

Its about being happy with yourself.

Enjoy life.

They’re not going to hand out gold stars to put on headstones for maintaining an ideal weight.

I know it is lengthy, but to get the full picture I’d be grateful for your time in reading the background to my question. Thank you so much.
I know I am opening myself up to some type of criticism here as I may be coming across as self indulgent/ and probably half witted, but this is a genuine attempt to understand what picture others see of me.
OK, this is the picture i see.
I’m basically a city girl, born and raised, and taken every opportunity that came my way. I have achieved a master’s degree. My beginnings was actually poor inner-city, went days without food, basically to cut a long story short I ended up in care as my mother was sectioned. There was plenty of room for improvement within care as many kids there had been traumatised. Cutting another very long story short, I am pretty accepting of other people, cultures, and well spoken, tall, mildly attractive, dress well and take a degree of pride in the way I look. I’m open minded pretty optimistic about life really….there had been lots of jobs and opportunities that came my way living in the big city including friendships across the divide, in work, rest and play. (note I hadn’t said much about family, we are not close knit and we basically live without each other hence me being placed in care.
I marry ( mixed race) have two small children and we move to a developing town/v.small city that has no diversity in culture, nothing in the way of opportunities, high unemployment and a lot of people that are uneducated, we live in a part of the country where there is a high race hate campaign. My beautiful children can be easily spotted within their school because of their skin colour and I am the only person of my sex and race in my community and having to take and fetch my kids from school. So I am easily spotted.
I don’t think this is really a bad thing but socially I am better 1-2-1 and quieter in a large group setting. I deal with this by eventually making the effort to get around to others. (I note I always seem to make the first move) I always make the effort to say hello, I am very polite. I find myself getting blanked, left out of groups, conversations, disliked, and I even feel my ethnicity offends people (this is totally new to me). My in-laws seem to want to judge me before getting to know me (they are also from this small town), and seem upset that they can’t mould me. I have gone from being accepted, successful and popular, to being ostracised, blanked, and left to stand alone. I also have an illness that affects my energy levels and at times can affect me socially; my illness can manifest itself through my eyes so at times I do find it hard to look at people straight in the eye to not draw attention to myself.
My 5 year old son is very handsome, and wins awards for his politeness at school. However watching him in the playground he too is blanked by the same kids who parents blank me. It breaks my heart I feel so sorry for him he really puts the effort in and the kids don’t seem to want to know. He is also left to play by himself. At just the tender age of three he came home really upset saying he wants to be white like daddy, and he wants blue eyes like daddy. When we visit the city he is very popular and deeply respected like myself. A lady I used to speak to has just had a baby, I buy here a card, she suddenly blanks me and walks past me and no longer wants to speak to me. What’s up? I just don’t understand the people here. It is the same wherever I go here even in my church people are the same. I am learning to just walk past people now and say nothing at all. Why is it so hard to be accepted?

So as one stranger to another, would you avoid me and why? Please also explain why you think people might be treating me this way.

Sounds like you’ve moved into a closed-minded, racially prejudiced area. They’re judging you on your skin colour alone if they’re not even taking the time to get to know you in any way. I find it astounding that even in your church it’s the same story – are these people supposed to be Christians? Not exactly walking the walk are they.

Personally, if it was me, I’d move somewhere else. Life’s too short to have to live among bigots like these.